TWO WEEKS ALONE IN BALI

July 31, 2019

Reporting live from a window seat in the back of a plane–I’m halfway through my 27-hour flight back from Bali. I went on a 2-week solo trip, and I’ve gotten so many DM’s on Instagram from you guys wanting to hear more about the trip, so here I am! I’ll tell you a bit about the reason why I decided to take this trip, and in a separate post I’ll give you my tips on where I stayed, what I did, and where I ate.

For starters, I will say that I’m very comfortable doing things alone. Whether it’s going to the movies, the museum, a hike, the spa, whatever–my alone time is when I regenerate, reflect, and regain my energy.

But there is a difference between “doing things alone” and “being alone.” Six months ago I was blind-sighted by a breakup in a two-year relationship. And while those wounds have healed and we actually are still great friends–I was still shaken by the feeling of being alone.

Whether it’s a boyfriend, girlfriend, parent, or friend, it feels good to have someone who’s your rock. Your home. Your sense of security and grounding. Your “root chakra” as they say in yoga.

But I decided, fuck that.

Fuck needing anyone to make you feel complete. I’m going to be my own rock. And so I went to Bali to embrace the notion of what it really means to be alone in this world. And honestly, it was amazing.

You don’t have to be going through an Eat Pray Love heartbreak situation to reap the benefits of solitary travel. A solo trip is a time to fully indulge in your passions. In the things that truly make you happy in life. The things that make you, YOU. For me that’s yoga, spirituality, the ocean, health food, and surfing (I’m terrible, but I love it and am determined to get better).

And so due to it’s epic waves, rich Hindu culture, stunning landscape, and notorious vegan scene–Bali seemed like just the place.

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit nervous about spending so much time alone. What if I go insane? Get lonely? Get so depressed and want to come back home? But honestly it was AMAZING. Every second was better than the last.

I spent two weeks going to yoga at sunrise and swimming in the ocean at sunset. I wiped out surfing Uluwatu’s legendary reefs. And visited a Balinese healer in Ubud. I took a meditation class so powerful I cried. And treated my body to healthy food every day. I talked to strangers. Got 7$ massages daily. And went to sleep at 9pm. For two weeks I lived my life exactly how I wanted to live it. And I had a fucking blast.

I noticed the real transformation happened at the halfway mark. When I started to feel the physical and mental effects of the trip. I felt happier, lighter, and immensely grateful. I found myself smiling more to strangers. And my anxiety was nowhere to be found. I woke up every morning with a big fat smile on my face. And went to sleep every night like a baby. I was completely alone in this big, crazy, amazing world. And I couldn’t have been happier.

20 Comments

  • Reply Judith Gould October 8, 2019 at 2:02 PM

    What wonderful photos, you have real talent!

  • Reply Yara Mabote September 18, 2019 at 6:40 PM

    Awww so proud of you! Doing things alone is my way of healing too. Glad you had a good time in Bali. Can imagine how refreshed you must feel :)

    http://www.desiringsme.com/3-reasons-to-try/

  • Reply Kinga September 12, 2019 at 4:23 PM

    Have a good month :)

  • Reply Nina September 2, 2019 at 9:15 AM

    Wow what an amazing place!
    xx- Nina
    http://www.stylingwithnina.com/2019/09/how-to-style-satin-skirt-last-weeks.html

  • Reply Kinga September 1, 2019 at 4:52 PM

    Happy September pretty❣

  • Reply THE LALA LOOKBOOK August 25, 2019 at 11:24 PM

    so inspiring!

    THE LALA LOOKBOOK
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  • Reply Kinga August 24, 2019 at 4:06 PM

    Have a fabulous weekend pretty ❤

  • Reply vanessa August 21, 2019 at 2:30 PM

    Wow! That is amazing! I would love to visit Bali and do Yoga there too!
    Sending so much love your way!
    xoxo, Vanessa
    http://www.whatwouldvwear.com

  • Reply Naya August 20, 2019 at 6:27 AM

    Omg, you go girl! I absolutely love the “I am my own rock” attitude and am so inspired by your trip! Glad that you had such a fab time and it’s nice to finally come across your blog xx

    Naya
    http://www.nayatilly.com

  • Reply Le Mag de Justine August 14, 2019 at 1:50 PM

    Cool your article, I loved reading it.
    XX

    Justine
    http://lemagdejustine.com

  • Reply lizza August 11, 2019 at 11:49 PM

    Wow amazing place

    xx LL

    http://www.lalouuula.com

  • Reply Kinga August 9, 2019 at 1:42 PM

    Happy weekend pretty❤

  • Reply Grace Louise August 9, 2019 at 12:39 PM

    This sounds amazing Hun I would love to travel solo for a bit it sounds like you had such a brilliant time!! x

    Grace Louise || http://www.gracelouiseofficial.blogspot.co.uk/

  • Reply Jessica August 7, 2019 at 11:15 PM

    Such a gorgeous paradise! This is such a lovely experience indeed.
    Jessica | notjessfashion.com

  • Reply Kinga August 1, 2019 at 6:14 PM

    I love Bali 💞

  • Reply Taz July 31, 2019 at 7:48 PM

    Omg this is honestly so beautiful!!!! I love how you’re not afraid to be alone and actually embrace it. I feel like society ostracizes and sheds people in a negative light if they like to do things alone. Just like you, I actually like doing things alone whether it be going gallery hopping, going to the museum, shopping, going to the movies, or even eating out alone. This is why you’re one of my favorite bloggers of all time!

    • Reply lily amber August 3, 2019 at 5:15 PM

      love you angel thanks for reading

  • Reply Fay July 31, 2019 at 2:01 PM

    love your courage, genuineness and free spirit.

  • Reply Alyssa Lenore July 31, 2019 at 1:23 PM

    This literally made me shed tears of happiness for you 😭

    • Reply lily amber August 3, 2019 at 5:14 PM

      i lurve u

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